OCTOBER 5 2011 Brilliant Visionary Eccentric genius you blew your mind and shared your trip with the rest of us. Unfortunate master of Factory City Somewhere in Southern China old and young risk disfigured hands assemble in deadly precision Connect us to everything but those hands In Shenzhen City. We wait, anticipate coming soon the new iphone 4 all the i’s the workers dot pod to pad we live for the next breath of Air. How well did you know about this city Apple built? was it all just out of control like the rest of us Apple eaters. Are you just another pawn in the game another puppet in play the Mystics might say as we pretend all this is real. Steve, i wonder where are you i
Feelings come easily for me; I get mired in them. Especially hurt feelings. Loss laced with Fear. Hard stuff. I am wired to feel whether I want to or not. I have not mastered the skill of dissociation. Working consciousness into my feelings keep them from turning into quicksand. Wrestling with where to go with my feelings towards my ex-partner of 31 years is formidable. The relationship as it was is over, there is no going back. Very hard for someone (m "You are over her, its being dumped you aren't over," my brother, my one sibling told me recently as I regressed into wishing we were still together. My ego and false sense of self-esteem immediately went into overdrive, the Rejection Channel
